Patience: Quality of being able calmly to wait or endure.
Frustrate: To prevent from achieving a goal or gratifying a desire.
As both a mother and a teacher I am constantly trying to help others achieve a balance between these two things. I tell my own kids and my students that learning something new can be frustrating, but with patience and perseverance you will have the reward in the end.
Diabetes is a real test in this kind of balance. It is very hard to calmly wait to get blood sugars to a point where I am not afraid I am damaging her body in some way. It is very hard to calmly endure the fact that she could have a severe low outside of my care. It is extremely frustrating to have to talk my little eight year old into putting the CGM on which she says really hurts and bothers her the whole time it is on. It is ultimate frustration when I decide we have to put the CGM on and then have it fall off less that 24 hours later.
I guess I get to practice what I preach to my students and kids by having patience with diabetes in the face of frustration. I guess I should look at this as daily lessons to my daughter of how to handle this disease the good, the bad, and the ugly of it with grace and patience. Maybe if I keep reminding myself that she is watching and learning from me it will help my ability to be patient and prevent me from losing my mind right now :).
So, as you have probably realized I did get the CGM on her and we both survived it. All went well last night and early this morning. Then after playing hard in phys. ed and swinging on the swings it fell off!!!!! I am currently logging her crazy numbers and I am trying to have patience. I think I will (patiently) wait until Saturday to start alternating the basal rate between .15 and.2, but I am anxious to try it out. Also, I'm still debating whether both, or either of us, possess the patience to put the CGM back on again.
6 days ago